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  And both of my parents are gay.

  The Invitation

  Later in the book, I will tell you the outcome of the sermon I preached to my parents and all the others in attendance at church that Sunday in 2012. But to put it in perspective, I first need to tell you about some of the formative events I experienced over the many years leading up to one of the most nerve-racking sermons of my life. In this book I’m going to tell you my story of having a mom who was a lesbian and a dad who was gay, of growing up in the LGBT community with my mom and her partner, and of finding Christ and eventually becoming a pastor.1 I’m also going to describe the path I took in coming to grips with what the Bible says about homosexuality and figuring out how to love and honor my parents in light of that teaching.

  I’d like to say at the outset that I don’t claim to be a great biblical scholar or brilliant theologian. I don’t think my opinions are always right and everyone else’s are wrong. I’m not writing this book to tell you what to think, but rather I hope that this book will spur you on to think more deeply on this issue for yourself, using the Bible as your chief guide. I’m sharing my experience as an insider to both the LGBT community and the Christian community, as well as giving you the insights I’ve gained.

  Even though my personal story will make up a big part of this book, it really isn’t about me at all. It is about you. I wrote this book for anyone who wants to know how to relate with grace and truth toward members of the LGBT community.

  I’ll give you a hint of what I said in my sermon that Sunday in September a few years ago: being unloving to gay people in your life is a sin. Also, it’s a crying shame because it puts a barrier between people and the gospel. It’s the opposite of being Christlike. I don’t see Jesus acting like that anywhere in the Gospels.

  Jesus’s command to “love your neighbor as yourself” does not have an exception clause for a gay “neighbor”—or, for that matter, any other “neighbor” we might find it hard to relate to. Followers of Jesus have got to learn how to treat people in the LGBT community with love that has no limits and makes no compromises. We have to love people as Jesus does.

  Jesus’s command to “love your neighbor as yourself” does not have an exception clause for a gay “neighbor”—or, for that matter, any other “neighbor” we might find it hard to relate to.

  Is it easy? Will we always know what to say and do? Will we never be uncomfortable? Of course not. Even when Christians want to be gracious and kind to members of the LGBT community, we’re not necessarily very good at it. Even when we do our best, others don’t always react in a way we would desire. Sometimes relationships start at a low point and go down from there.

  So let’s admit it—it’s going to be messy at times. Messiness is what happens when you try to live out God’s perfect grace as a flawed person in a flawed world. Yet God has a way of working through us when we keep on trying to share his grace, regardless of how messy our situations get. That’s why this book is titled Messy Grace—not because God is messy or a certain community is messy, but because all people are messy!

  Messiness is what happens when you try to live out God’s perfect grace as a flawed person in a flawed world.

  I’ll be dealing much more with the mess and the glory of grace as we go on in this book. Right now, let me assure you…

  This book is for you if you experience same-sex attraction, opposite-sex attraction, or some of both.

  It’s for you if you’re sure the Bible condemns same-sex relationships, convinced the Bible permits it, or just plain confused on the point.

  It is for you if you love Jesus, want to follow in his way, and want to know how to relate to people in the LGBT community in a way that honors him.

  It’s even for you if you just don’t see what the big deal is. You may be thinking, Why can’t some Christians just leave the LGBT community alone and direct their energies toward bigger issues? You’ll find out.

  If any of these categories describe you, then read on.

  Why We’re Grace Failures

  The more Christians engage the LGBT community in a gracious way, the more genuine relationships will come from it. So, why aren’t Christians better at getting along with the LGBT community?

  I’ve often pondered why this might be. After all, we’re followers of the most gracious man ever—Jesus. We’ve been the recipients of astounding, radical grace ourselves. We can hardly help reading about grace every time we open our favorite book. Yet all too often our reputation among the LGBT community for being ungracious is well deserved. Why?

  I’m sure there are many reasons. Here are four of the most common ones.

  Fear of the LGBT Community

  Some Christians have different kinds of fears when they think about the LGBT community. For example, some fear that gay activism will wind up taking away Christians’ rights. They believe that gay-favoring politics is becoming a means to limit how they can live, how they can do business, and even what they’ll be allowed to legally say on the issue of homosexuality.

  Will the worst predictions of religious restriction come to pass someday? I don’t know. But even if they do, I know that God will be with us then just as he is now. He works strongly when his people come under different types of attacks. I also know that threats to our rights, whether real or merely dreaded, should not prevent us from showing the love and kindness that Jesus says we owe to all.

  On a more personal level, some Christians are afraid because they think that those who are LGBT will be attracted to them. Now, this one has always cracked me up. Listen to me on this: if you’re not attractive to the opposite sex, you’re probably not attractive to the same sex. (I kid! I kid!) Seriously, we shouldn’t worry about gay people making a move on us. Let’s relax.

  Lack of Biblical Understanding

  A dirty little secret is that most Christians don’t know the Bible very well. I would dare to say that most American Christians keep their Bible reading to about five minutes every month. They’re familiar with a few favorite passages. The rest of the biblical landscape remains a vast unexplored territory to them.

  Because of this lack of biblical understanding, Christians sense that they are not well prepared to have conversations about homosexuality and related issues. They’re afraid they won’t have the answers to hard questions that might be put to them. Or they’re afraid they won’t be able to back up their positions biblically, even if they’re pretty sure they’re right. They might get backed into a corner, make a mistake, or be made to look foolish.

  Better not to engage the LGBT community at all, they figure, than do it badly. The result is that the Christian community is over here and some from the LGBT community are over there, and Christians look cold and distant.

  I want to ask you this: If you’re in this position, wouldn’t it be better to learn your Bible and prepare yourself for this or any conversation that would arise?

  And there is still another kind of lack of biblical understanding. Some Christians know the Bible inside and out; their lack of understanding comes not from absence of knowledge but from not knowing how to use their knowledge. Unfortunately, some Christians have used the Bible as a weapon to bludgeon those who disagree. This, too, is a lack of biblical understanding, as it shows no love toward those with differing worldviews.

  Some Christians need to understand that we can be right in our beliefs but wrong in how we communicate them.

  Absence of Empathy

  Many Christians, I’m sorry to say, have never bothered to place themselves in the shoes of someone who is LGBT. What are the lives of gay people like? What are their needs and concerns? What are their dreams? How do others treat them? How do they feel about God and the church?

  Let me tell you about one misconception that comes from not taking the time to understand gay people: many Christians think that homosexuality is mainly about sex. They believe that you’re in the LGBT community because you want to have sex with people of the same gender. This isn’t totally true. Sex is only a part of the equation (and probably a small part for some). Most Christians haven’t thought this issue through enough to realize that there is more to someone who identifies as LGBT than sexuality—a lot more.

  All people have experiences, history, beliefs, friends, family, and more that make them into the people they are. Or as I like to say, all people have depth. So when we reduce homosexuality to just sex, we are thinking in a way that is far too shallow. People are just not that simple. We ought to get to know them as they are.

  Closed-Door Attitude

  Then there are some Christians who know their stuff. These Christians understand a lot of the Bible, have attended numerous Bible studies or Sunday school classes, lead their own groups, attend conferences, go to marriage retreats, and more. They are full-on Christians. First, let me say that I love Christians who fit this description. I love them even more when they don’t just go to events or classes to learn more but also put that learning into action by serving others. I want people in my church to do all of these things and to grow in their knowledge of the Bible—and it’s even better when they use what they’ve learned to lead others to Jesus.

  Unfortunately, some of these Christians (not all, but some) are the kind of Christians who tend to shut people out of their lives if they don’t fit their brand of Christianity. As I’ll share in the book, I’ve run into this type of Christian a lot in my life (even in churches that I’ve served in). There are times when these Christians can be so concerned about holiness that they end up keeping away those who are less than perfect. They create a church culture that allows only a narrow few to participate in the community. I don’t think the majority of these Christians mean to do this or even know they are doing this to others. It comes from putting a huge emp
hasis on knowledge without loving those whom Jesus loved. Having the mind-set that you’ve got it together and everyone else is lacking is a fast track to being a grace failure.

  Having the mind-set that you’ve got it together and everyone else is lacking is a fast track to being a grace failure.

  Because of these reasons and more, not all Christians know how to think critically or talk comfortably about the issue of homosexuality. And because of our failure to approach this issue on a deeper level, we often miss opportunities to dialogue with others. Worse, we end up hurting other people.

  Now I want to tell you about a young man named Hector and an encounter he had with some Christians that deeply affected his views of himself and God.2 As you read his story, try to imagine how he felt, because it’s likely that someone you know has felt very much the same way.

  What It’s Like to Be Hector

  “Guys, I’ve got something I want to tell you,” Hector spoke up. A twenty-year-old Hispanic man attending Cal State Northridge in the Los Angeles area, Hector was with three other college-aged men, new friends of his, in the home belonging to the mom of one of the other guys. It was late on a Wednesday evening. They had finished watching a movie and were sitting in the family room, eating the last of the popcorn and talking and laughing together. A lot of the conversation had to do with girls in the college group at the church where these four friends had met.

  Hector hoped the others didn’t notice the slight tremor in his voice. They would never know how hard it was for him to bring up what he was about to say.

  “What is it?” said Ryan. “Shoot.”

  “I don’t know what you’re going to think about this,” Hector said, “but I’m actually into dudes.”

  Chewed bits of popcorn shot out of VJ’s mouth as he started to laugh. Ryan and James both laughed too. They all thought Hector was kidding.

  When Hector sat there looking serious and embarrassed, the laughing faltered. VJ coughed and then took a swallow of soda.

  In the awkward silence that ensued, Ryan said to Hector, “Are you serious?”

  “Yeah, man,” Hector replied. “Is that so hard to believe?”

  The other three guys glanced nervously at each other, and then each tried to put on a concerned, attentive face. They started asking Hector questions.

  How long had Hector known this about himself?

  Since a young age. He’d worked hard to keep it from his family, but he’d never been able to deny it to himself.

  Had Hector been molested or mistreated?

  No. He’d been raised just like his older and younger brothers, both of whom were straight. He’d never been babied by his mother or bullied by his father. No one had ever laid a hand on him in the wrong way when he was a kid.

  Had he ever, you know…done stuff with a guy?

  Ryan whacked VJ over the head with a sofa pillow for asking this question, and Hector didn’t deign to answer it.

  How did he think God felt about his same-sex attraction?

  Hector had been an altar boy in the Catholic church his family attended when he was growing up, and whenever the priest talked about “the sin of homosexuality,” he had felt ashamed and fearful of God’s punishment. For a long time, he’d prayed almost daily for God to remove his attraction to other males, but it had never happened. When he went to college, he tried to forget about God and joined a partying crowd, many of whom were either LGBT or questioning their sexuality. When all the partying made him feel empty, he’d started attending the evangelical church where he’d met Ryan, James, and VJ. He wasn’t sure if his sexual orientation was all right in God’s eyes or not. He knew, though, that he was interested in Jesus again.

  Why had Hector told the other guys this about himself?

  Hector just thought they ought to know, if they were going to be friends.

  At this point in the conversation, Hector was thinking that things had gone decently well. He was beginning to relax.

  But then things fell apart.

  James, who hadn’t said much up to this point, started firing Bible verse after Bible verse at him. At first Hector tried to listen and take it as if James were genuinely trying to educate him on the Bible’s view of marriage and intimacy. But quickly it began to feel like an attack, and Hector got mad.

  Ryan said to James, “Cut it out! He doesn’t need that right now.”

  Then Ryan turned to Hector and said, “Look, Hec, we can help. Do you want us to pray for God to release you from the demons of homosexuality?”

  It was Hector’s turn to laugh out loud before realizing Ryan was serious. “I don’t think I can do this anymore right now,” he suddenly said. “See you guys later.” He grabbed his jacket and was out of there the next instant.

  Hector went back to his dorm that night feeling defeated and unsure of whether he had made the right decision to tell his friends about being gay.

  Over the next few days, no one from the church college group called him. That Sunday, when he went to church, the guys he usually hung out with were strangely cold toward him. He caught a couple of weird glances from other members of the college group too. The pastor of the group pulled him aside and said that he’d like to talk with him sometime that week. Hector knew. The rumors had spread.

  That was Hector’s last day at that church.

  In fact, it was Hector’s last day at any church for quite a while.

  Living in the Tension

  Unfortunately, as a pastor, I am all too familiar with stories like Hector’s—stories where Christians had the chance to be gracious and loving but instead (often not meaning to) hurt and exiled someone like Hector. This pattern is exactly what should not happen in your church or mine. It definitely shouldn’t happen in our personal relationships.

  As you read Hector’s story, were you thinking of someone you know in the LGBT community?

  Maybe a good friend just confided in you that he is attracted to people of the same gender. The news caught you off guard, and now you’re confused about how to respond or what to do. You know some of the things you should probably say, but you are unsure whether or not you could do it well, and if you could, when and how you should proceed.

  Perhaps a daughter came out to you as a lesbian. You were shocked, horrified. You immediately became concerned about her relationship with God. There were harsh words on both sides. The rift hasn’t closed to this day, but now that you’ve had some time to think about it, you’re reminded of how much you love her, you want to know what’s going on in her life, and you want to be of genuine help to her.

  Or possibly you met someone at work. He’s exactly the kind of person you would like to be friends with—same sense of humor, same interests, a lot of deep things to say. Also, you consider yourself an evangelistic sort of Christian, wanting to share Jesus with people who are not believers—people like this guy. But there’s this one little thing: he’s gay. Actually, it’s not so little to you. You wonder if you can form a relationship with this person. Or would it be better to skip it and move on to find another friend?

  I want to invite you to live in the tension of grace and truth. I’m not asking you to do something that you’re not already doing. Christianity is filled with tension. We believe in one God, but he is Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Jesus was fully God and fully human. The Bible was written by human authors but inspired of God. The tension of predestination and free will has brought lively debate throughout the years. Even the whole discussion of faith and works is filled with tension. You may not have ever thought of your faith in this way, but you’re already living in the tension. So when it comes to homosexuality, I want you to consider living in the tension of grace and truth. Why? Because your relationship with your family member, friend, or co-worker is totally worth it.

  I hope you’re ready to consider your gay friend or loved one as a whole person and to try to think about the issues of homosexuality and faith from his or her perspective. I hope you’re ready to learn how to be gracious to people in the LGBT community even if it makes you nervous or unsure of the ground you’re standing on. Because if you are, then you’re ready to read the rest of this book.